I have a 20-year-old and a 17-year-old. I remember thinking ages like 5-10 was hard. Shoot, every age is hard. But right now feels like whole different kind of hard

My oldest, Tyler, is leaving this month to go to Sweden. 4321 miles away (we google earthed it lol). He isn’t just going—he’s going alone. He’s checking it out to maybe MOVE THERE!!!!

In April we did not our first, but our second out-of-state college tour for Kaci. Im talking states away!!!!

Rewind (that’s new for the blog), we taught our kids that they could go anywhere. Don’t be afraid, follow your dreams. No matter where you go we will come visit, we will make sure you are ok. You will never be alone. Don’t be scared, go do it.

IT BACKFIRED, LOL!

I take it back. It is scary out there, you can’t leave the house, you’ll die. Just kidding, kinda lol.

You want them to go out and explore. The one thing I never wanted was for them to feel like they couldn’t go anywhere. To not go after a dream or goal or adventure because they didn’t want to leave or were afraid to leave what they knew. Do it scared.

So we traveled, we talked about it. And now that it may happen, this momma wants to take it back. But I mean I don’t lol. Parenting is complicated lol.

I swear to you, if they both leave in the same year, I may need to be admitted.

But I’m beyond proud of them both. How many 20-year-olds go overseas by themselves for the first time, pay for it all, and are going to check it out to possibly move there? Not many. Shoot most adults won’t.

Then to have my 17-year-old touring colleges for 2 years now. Knowing what she wants to do with conviction. Working her booty off to pay for it. Talking about early admission to cross that step off her list.

I couldn’t be prouder of them both. But gosh my mom heart is in a million pieces. Many many times over the last few months I’ve said, I’d take a 4-year-old’s temper tantrum over these really, really big life things any day.

I wouldn’t change it. And I hope they always know how proud we are of them. I hope they know no matter what, no matter where, we will be there. I hope they know that if crap happens, I’ll move stuff around in their old room, throw down a cot and let them come back. lol.

Anyone else need a drink? lordy lord

xoxo amber g